So I’m not one to get into serious conversations with many people. And that is certainly not why I created this blog but I’ve felt inclined to voice this, for whatever reason, since listening to the Serial Podcast.
Have you heard of it yet? Essentially, a reporter, Sarah Koenig learned about the murder case of Hae Min Lee over a year ago and ever since, has been going over the entire investigation and trial in detail. Hae Min Lee, a senior in high school, was murdered in January of 1999. Her ex-boyfriend, Adnan Sued was convicted and sentenced to life in prison. Adnan has always claimed innocence with anything relating to Hae’s murder. Sarah took interest and has been trying to find out the truth and chronicles it all in the Serial Podcast.
I listened to the entire thing on the way to South Carolina for Thanksgiving, a full 6 hours and the trip went by amazingly quick. I was hooked. The story is incredibly interesting, I think it’s very easy to start off believing that Adnan is innocent, but now, I’m not so sure.
You get to know the people involved pretty well. Through all of the interviews, I really felt like I could picture these people and could understand where their heads were at in relation to this murder, Adnan and all the key people. But what really caught my attention was the description of each person…by each person. And the thought crossed my mind…how would the people in my life describe me when confronted with those questions?
If those random acquaintances that I had in high school were simply asked, “what was Kelly’s deal?”, I really wonder what people would say. I hope that words like kind, funny, generous, or likeable would be used but I’m not so sure. I was a pretty introverted, quiet girl in high school, not a ton of friends but a few very close ones that really knew me. It sounds incredibly silly to think but, it made me wonder, if there had a been a crime that I could have possibly been involved in, would peoples reactions be “no way!” or something along the lines of “that doesn’t surprise me.”?
Adnan mentions his frustration with this; that anyone that knew him at all could possibly believe that he murdered his ex-girlfriend without any physical proof. It’s heartbreaking to think about. Even though they haven’t been able to prove Adnan’s innocence at this point and there are still things that don’t point in favor of that, it really made me think.
It’s interesting to think how everyone has different perceptions of…pretty much everything. There was a time in high school where I can remember hearing that someone (do not remember who) didn’t like me and being so hurt by it! My thought was always “but I’m this sweet, quiet, mild mannered person! why would someone not like me for no reason?!” And I think this is when I realized, 1. that I was far more sassy than I knew and 2. that introverted people don’t always give off a great impression. I remember always wishing people would just get to know me and they would love to be my friend! But it’s not like I was going out of my way to get to know anyone else, but I guess that can also be blamed on a selfish teenager outlook on life. (I’ve still got work to do but you’ll be happy to know that I have become much more self aware as I’ve gotten older).
Anyway, I’m not sure where I’m going with this and what I’m really trying to get at. I feel like I just wrote a report for no reason at all. But this whole thing just got me thinking about how I come off as a person and maybe it’ll make you think about it too. There has been so much sad, disheartening news in my world this last month that I’ve really decided I’m going to actually BE a good person instead of assuming that I am but not doing anything about it. This is probably a strange thing to take away from the Serial Podcast but, I guess that’s what 6+ hours of listening to serious conversation will do to you.
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